10/18/16, 2:08am
Melancholia
I think the Mania is gone.
Hallucinations have shifted. The tactile ones are all but gone, the olfactory ones haven’t returned since starting the Risperdal and the visuals are much less… smaller… less intense. The last nasty one was when a roach crawled out of my Diet Coke can onto my face (it was not real) and I threw the can across the room. That was… 2 nights ago? 3 now? Otherwise, the shadows are pretty small… more translucent. I haven’t had an auditory hallucination in over a week.
Even though all those horrible hallucinations have all but abated, I am sad I am not filled with energy like I have been. I feel like a sloth now… it taking inordinate amounts of energy to do anything. Still not sure if I am dipping down into depression or not. I see the Psych in the morning and will run it by him.
Medications At the Moment
Psych Meds
- Risperdal 2 mg at bedtime
- Wellbutrin
- Cymbalta
- Lamictal
- Buspar
Meds from ER Visit & GI Doc
- Bentyl – finished (not sure it did anything)
- Cipro – finished in the morning; feel MUCH better in my abdomen, diarrhea gone, suspected UTI gone
- Lomotil – haven’t picked it up from the Pharmacy yet, but didn’t need it after the Cipro
- Probiotics bid – helps keep the yeasties at bay with the Cipro
Work & Sleep
I’ve been back to work 2 days in a row now. Luckily, we can log in and log out whenever we want/need to, so when I get tired, I just log out and take a nap. I spent 3 days barely able to function as things slowed down. I felt like my brain was stuttering and I never knew, from one minute to another, whether I would be able complete a call or need to crash asleep, so I pretty much listened to music, did some work writing and watched Netflix or Amazon.
My hair-trigger anger seems to have settled some as well, but when I get upset, it is over-the-top, but simmers down quicker than it would have a week ago.
I’ll write more after seeing the Psych and my therapist tomorrow.
In the meantime, I’m just resting.
10/18/16, 2:45am
Navelgazing Writer 